My friends, I’m struggling with the changes coming in my life, but I know I have to accept them.
My oldest will be heading off to college in three months. I know this is the natural order of things. I know he’ll thrive and learn to become a productive member of society. I know this is what he wants. And I know he deserves to go off and live his life. I’m just not ready to say goodbye.
Sure, I’m not the first parent to feel this way, and I won’t be the last. And I know I’ll get used to his absence. I just needed to get my feelings out.
It’s all compounded by the uncertainly of my employment. I was hired just for this school year (and what a school year it’s been!), to cover a leave of absence. If the teacher doesn’t come back, AND they can’t find a certified teacher to fill the vacancy, THEN they can hire me again. I’ve been down this road before, so I know that I won’t know for sure until school starts.
In the meantime, I’ll just keep doing the best job I can. I’ll be there for my students and get us all through this off-the-charts year. And then, while I look for a new job, I’ll have time to write. So, that’s the positive.
I’m not quite ready yet to face the wind and accept the changes, but I will.
What are you facing right now? Whatever it is, I’m sending you lots and lots of virtual hugs.
I’m sending virtual hugs and positive thoughts your way. Heading into the empty nest years is a process. It takes so much adjustment but it’s also very enriching to see where your young men’s lives will lead! Hang in there!